Today I saw her comments on my blog entry yesterday, I thought of using a password entry for that because I know quarrel will starts if she saw that blog entry but I chose not putting that as I wanted to write out how I feel and hope she might understand how I felt. I did try to understand how she feel earlier when she is busy with her work but when sometimes I realized that’s not the busy causes in this problem, I’m quite disappointed; for an example, after work she went out with her friend without telling me and I have to message her then I will be informed of what she is doing or where she went to. She keeps saying that it’s unfair to her but will it be fair for me?

Let me phrase a scenario, a couple will not contact much and the only contact is in Msn. Sometimes even not Msn; have to wait till weekends meeting. What if, you are walking to a shopping center and surprisingly you saw your girlfriend walking out, how will you respond? “er?  How come you at shopping? Where are you going later?” will you feel weird? I believe if you know that your girlfriend is doing shopping there, you will meet her and is either joining her or meeting her to asking her how’s her shopping goes. How about if your friend is beside you? They will keep on thinking how come this boyfriend didn’t know any information from his girl friend. This question has been asked to 4 people and 4 people don’t know how to respond. So near yet so far! 

Meet up jasmine for lunch at Chinatown. Had so much food and till now I’m still so FULL. Sinful! I must change this habit of eating when I’m unhappy or sad. If not, how many days of gym I went will be a waste? Haha! I can’t imaging I will woke up at 4am to continue my blog. Haha! I fall asleep and now I’m continuing my writing at the weird time. ;p   Good night everyone!

Actually today want to meet her for dinner but there’s goes again, she’s MIA again. You will not believe a person who can leave without her hand phone, as in she can don’t reply your message even passed 2-3days. I had went through before, I had already used to it after trying lot of method to improve it, even changed a hand phone but problems is still lying there. Leopards will not change their spots.  
 

Today my ex-boss meeting me for lunch, he still doing fine there and heard that they got a new project. If nothing goes wrong, simply 3yrs contact. He asked me back again and yesh, I think twice again too. Haha… he offering a good pay again and wants me to be his assistant to guide with him in the new project, after the 3yrs following him to work in Shanghai. I’m proudly mentioned in Shanghai too. That’s so confused when one side is offering a good pay but the working environment sux-ky and another side is good too but the problem only lies on lack of confident.  –CONFUSED- 
 

Yesh! I will go for my leave next week. Although have to rush for my exam but at least I can sleep late! Haha… yesh! I’m born in year 1983 so you can’t blame of my piggy-ness. Haha…

Today went soccer with my classmate and his cousin friends, this make me realized that I’m really getting old. Haha! Difficult to control the ball and reaction is not as fast as others. Omg! I’m getting old! Exam is coming and that will be my last module, I have to pass this if not I have to waste my lifetime to apply my diploma next year. BLESS ME!

Yesterday was an unlucky day for me, I’m being fa*k by my leader early in the morning and the problem is I don’t know what I did wrong also. I received a fax from shipper A; I called my colleague and ask whether is Shipper A is under her care and my replied are YES! so is a common sense that I will pass the documents to her. ( Please let me know if this doesn’t sound sense.) But after while msn with my leader, she told me that the Shipper A is under her care and ask me to help her to do some document since is her off day. I told her what I did and being scolded of doing silly mistake of passing documents to her, for your information; this documents is not privacy, I can simply ask my colleague to pass back the documents to me but thing don’t come this way. She scolded me the following sentences; “Damn it, now then I know the documents is you who passed it to her. Why you always do this kind of silly mistake? Why you didn’t check in the database first before passing the documents! Do you know you are in my team and my team will not do this kind of stupid mistake! You have to buck up yourself!” may I know how   do you feel in your Saturday morning getting this kind of scolding? Before this scolding, my customer wrote an email to me for a reminder of an explanation, I asked my leader and get the instruction from my GM but she refused to email them and saying that let them cool down before you explain with them so I wrote the following sentence, “I’m sorry, this shipper is already transferred to Cindy care. I will forward her and ask her to give you a good explanation” ended up I got scolded from her again saying why I must say a good explanation and how she going to reply. She asked me to go and buy some reference books for better communication. (My thoughts are, we have to reply them as that’s 3^rd reminder and comfort their feeling by telling them a good explanation). I was so angry when she was saying so loud in the office about my English. I have to admit that my English is poor but doesn’t mean that she must say so loud about my matters in the office. There is another problem I don’t like, whenever she being screwed by my GM, she will come towards me and check all my documents. She will keep saying here and that but the problems is, she didn’t update or doing the same as me. Will you pek cek? Ahaha BLESS ME! ;p

What comes around goes around, I will fight and learn faster to protect myself!

 You should practice expressing your humanity by accepting people the way they are and not find too much fault in them.

I have started to go gym recently and I planned to go everyday from the 1^st day of July. I wanted to slim down within a month because I planned for a tattoo on my shoulder right back. That will show you how much vain-ness I’m having. Haha.. “ai sui mai mia”! tattoo will be post sooner or later for advise.

 I found a new job and started on 1^st May, Unigroup Worldwide Singapore will be my new prospectus target for me. I’m a coordinator there to follow up shipments and arranging delivery and clearance from any country that’s related import, export from Singapore. It’s an office job although is a logistic background and it’s totally difference from my previous job. I have to start from ZERO again but no worries, I believe I can go through it although my training is not fully trained due to some incident happened when I’m still a week years old at UGWW. 

Oh my god! My HR exam is coming and I’m still empty headed. Is there anyway to help me memories all those HR rubbish within few days? Haha some advise me to burn my book and drink it. Haha.. I have to put 100% effort for this module as its will be my last module before I graduate for my certificate. This will give me a chance to learn that “Don’t change a job when you are still in studying.” Haha.. 

Night is going late and body is getting tired.
Goodnight! 

93kg :- still got 10kg to go!